listenin to bedshaped by keane. nice song. indie i gues. e doctor gave me 2 daes mc. but i gues ill come tml. promised darla. =)) besides, i'm feelin much bttr. in case yal havnt noticed, on mon n tue i was coughin a sniffin carryina bottle all over d place. yes, im reali sick tis tym. stayin at hm isnt much fun. mum ayah nenek n hannan went off shoppin n im stuck here. sigh, wadever. im so hatin my stupidity. i wish im those kinda smart asses who can pull off a pass witout studyin. lyk queenie. or even nas. n i wish im fatter. n hell way prettier. i hate it when ppl comment on my skinny sillhoute n assume im aneorxic or sth. but ppl who noe me, noe tt i eat. alot. so its not my fuckin fault okay. n dun say i luk lyk chinese or tt my eyes r bulgin. cos if u dun i may actuali lerp myself. n dun fuckin treat me lyk im stupid. or a loser. or anitin associated wit "failing". cant u jus b hapie tt i may b hapie wit myself. im slow, i noe. but i dun get it. my IQ is 117 yet my mind acts as if im on pentium 1 or sth, or at least everyone does. hais. whatever nasuha.

but on the brighter side besides all my flaws, i tink im e luckiest gerl ever! okay i noe im bein contradictin ( fyi, i spent 15 mins tryin to remember tt weird. doink). but watever. i basically egt watever i want, i gues. if i cant get it, my parents get it, n if dey cant, nas gets it. c? hehehe. alhamdulillah. n for sum reason i always land in shit n get out of it clean. klucky lucky me. mwuahs to myself. n alhamdulillah again. so, im flawed, who cares? im lucky n blessed! yeay!

ok i noe. LAME